Not once...not twice...but THREE times

That's the number of times my car had to be jump started today... It all began this afternoon when I got out of class and started (or so I thought) to work. Mind you it was raining today and I of course forgot my umbrella so I'm pretty wet from walking to/from class. I get in my car and turn the key and... NOTHING. It clicked a couple of times but overall nothing....

Thankfully Mamma and Ricky had taken off work today for one reason or another and after a while I finally got ahold of them. I tracked them down at my Mema's house (which BTW I am her favorite.) They came and jumped me off and when I inquired as to whether or not I should even drive my car to Gainesville they assured me I should be ok.... just make sure I'm not the last one to leave from work.... reassuring. 

That was jump off number one.... where you might say my parents who are supposed to love me kind of threw me under the bus.....

Number two came after work when as I got into my car and turned the key the radio came on but again NOTHING.... excepted that dammed clicking noise. Rachel jumped me off but something didn't feel right... it hesitated and the radio kept cutting in and out....

That was jump off number two. 

I called Josh and told him that I had to be jumped again.... he told me to come strait home. But I needed to go by Best Buy and pick up one of his birthday gifts. I persisted. I figured it would be ok as long as I didn't turn the car off.... I thought wrong. 

I parked in front of the doors turned my hazards on and went inside to get the present (which he loved btw) all was good until I came back out and turned off my hazards. With those lights went all the power from the car and it died. :( 

I get out and scan the area for a safe looking person to ask for help. I spot a very large black man getting out of his truck and he reminds me of Big Black from Rob and Big so I ask him to help me and he pulls his truck up and we attach the cables and proceed to try and defibrillate my car back to life.... While this is happening a lady I know was heading into Best Buy and she stopped to make sure everything was ok and stayed to make sure I wasn't molested or taken hostage.... I wasn't but shout out to Kim Caldwell and thanks for looking after me!!!

While we were waiting a few more people stopped to make sure everything was ok and to see if I needed more help and I was really encouraged about society.... 

That was jump number three in case you lost count.

Now I'm safely back home and wondering how much car batteries are.... yay.

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Fat Tuesday...Ash Wednesday...Palm Sunday

Today is Fat Tuesday...the start of Mardi Gras, for those of you who are episcopalian or catholic you know that tomorrow is Ash Wednesday and the start of Lent. I don't practice these religions, but I have done lent a couple of times. (In case you don't know its like a form of fasting... you give up something for 40 days, until Palm Sunday. You can't have your given up item except for on Sundays.) Usually I am ok for the first little while but then I forget and eat or drink it.

I'm trying to decide if I want to give something up.... I also can't decide what I would like to give up... I'm thinking either sodas or chocolate.... it will definitely be a challenge either way.... keep in your prayers about it.

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A song of praise

I've been feeling very blessed lately. Don't get me wrong, I know that I am always blessed, but overall things have been very good for us. Josh has been able to negotiate so he's getting more Sundays off so we have been able to start going to church regularly and we both love that so much, it is becoming a definite need in my life. I crave it, I love listening to Les deliever God's word so passionately, watching the children who on the outside may not seem like they are paying attention, but are really soaking up the message like a sponge.... its a great stress reliever. I can really see a difference in our outlook and day to day happenings since we've really been making an effort to go to Church. I love it.

The past year has been pretty stressful except for finding Josh and getting to know him on many levels. We have been through a lot during our first year, and are still dealing with things everyday... the one consistant through everything has been our love for each other, it has never waivered or stumbled only grown stronger with each passing day... I have never in my life (outside of my family and God) experienced a love so pure and strong and unfaltering. I know that he will always be by my side and help me to get through any road block life may have. It is the most amazing thing I've ever felt on earth.

We were talking just the other day about how amazing the feeling of having absolute trust in your spouse, knowing that you never have to worry about what they are doing or who they are with, neither of us have ever experienced that before... honestly I never knew it existed. I thank God everyday for giving me that in my life...

Money has been really tight, especially these past few months but somehow God sees us through each week and we continue to make it, I am continually amazed at His unending love and power. He has given me the love of my life who I continue to fall in love with every day, an amazing family who supports all of my decisions, a steady job, good health, a Savior who loves and died for me, and everything I want and need in life, how could I ask for more than His sweet grace?

Let this be my song of praise Lord, that I may worship you with my every breath, everyday...

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The "Octo-mom"

Lately I have been hearing a lot about the lady in CA who recently gave birth to eight healthy (thankfully) babies.

I just want to say that she PISSES me off.

This lady, actually that connotation implies that she has class and common senses even. That woman already had six children all through IVF, she is a single mother (none of the children were born using her husband's sperm) who is living at home with her parents. Her mother, the children's grandmother is the primary care-giver to these kids. She can't even take care of the SIX she already has. I believe that is is pure selfishness for her to spend THOUSANDS of dollars on IFV to have more children when she can't provide for or take care of the ones she has.

She does not give her mother or father in financial support for letting her and her gaggle of children live in their THREE BEDROOM home, she has no job, but rumor has it (and this is just speculation so take it with a grain of salt) when you see pictures of her now and pictures of her after her first 6 were born she looks totally different. Favoring Angelina Jolie slightly....

does anyone know why its ok for A.J. to adopt a baby or two from every country in the world and have a few of her own? A. she has a shit ton of money to be able to support the kids and provide them with what they need B. she has a husband to help her out with this (not saying you have to have a husband to raise kids properly, but you do need help from somewhere).... This woman was single mom... she would have had a difficult time finding a man to take on her and SIX kids, I hope she likes being single because I don't think there is a man out there willing to take on FOURTEEN kids.... that's a football team practically.

She also pisses me off because there are so many good and deserving families out there who can't have one child. And she is going to go and *artificially* have FOURTEEN. I say artificially because she didn't use her husband when she had him and this time there wasn't even a man in the picture. I know many couples use IVF and there is not a problem with that. Its wonderful that we have the technology to allow more people to be able to conceive.

I also want to know what kind of doctor would implant SIX embryos in a woman's uterus. I realize that they plant multiples so there is a better chance of one of them taking, but you have to know there is a risk that when you plant SIX that SIX could be born. And that puts the babies in danger of not being able to develop and form properly. His license should be revoked. That is unsafe practice. I don't even know how he can sleep at night to know that he brought EIGHT children into this world for a slefish woman who can't take care of the SIX she already has. Nothing about this was a good idea, not even for her to want or have one more child. She can't give her existing children what they need.

Ok, now that I've got that out I feel better. Have a good day.

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Instead of being super happy...

I feel a little like I'm drowning... very slowly (which I think is the only way you do that so whatever).

I got my wedding dress yesterday, which normally should be super exciting and I should still be riding the cloud nine happy train I derailed somewhere in the ocean and now I can't breathe. 

We got Josh's insurance statement yesterday and instead of it being the amount we were quoted when we signed on for State Farm in December it was about double! So I called them today and found out that apparently when we were getting our quote and everything a ticket or a wreck or something wasn't showing up so we had a lower price and it was just recalculated or reran or something and it showed up so not only did his premium increase we are having to pay back the difference from the three months that we'd originally paid. So now, his insurance payment is almost as much as his car payment, which we could barely afford to begin with, plus we have to come up with the money for other bills, and essentially I just don't know how its going to happen. I think we might drown. Slowly and surely. 

I'm so stressed out right now, I don't even know what to do. I don't know how I'm going to be able to even focus on studying or thinking about school because all I can think of is how we should be working. I don't know how I'm going to be able to afford to buy Josh a birthday present, let alone a Valentine's Day present. Basically, we can't do anything right now. 

Keep us in your prayers.

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